fuck off

this is why i dont fucking think about it. i cant fucking think about it. i cant even fucking write...

Fri, 24 Dec 2010 01:29:00 +0000

this is why i dont fucking think about it. i cant fucking think about it. i cant even fucking write about it because i cant accept it as a part of me and its all i will be. it wont ever go. but i dont even fucking want it to. when my scars start to fade or i think they are i cant take it. i dont want them to go. when they go i’ll have nothing left. even though i fucking hate them at the same time. i dont want to be associated with people who do it too because ive convinced myself im not like them, im not. but i am. i cant deal with this.

there is no point to life. nothing matters in the end. it doesnt matter if you’ve had a good life or a shit life. you dont get any special treatment when you die. everything just seems so fucking pointless. i cant be bothered with life if this is all it is. everyone is just expected to do the same things. and for what? you go to school to be able to get a good job but it DOESNT FUCKING MATTER. all the jobs in the world benefit someone or future people. so im having a shit time at school just to benefit other shitheads in the future? great. and spend half my life at work for it. then the people i benefited will die eventually and it will be a waste. everything is just a waste. fair enough if you like life and want to live, but i dont. i wish a better version of me would come and replace me and keep living then i could just disappear.

i want to be enough for someone. i want to not be so awkward. i want to want to be alive. i want to be wanted. i want to not hate myself.

fuck you.

Sun, 10 Oct 2010 21:05:34 +0100

it’s my birthday in 9 days. i really fucking hate my birthdays. i don’t to celebrate my...

Sun, 05 Sep 2010 01:19:34 +0100

it’s my birthday in 9 days. i really fucking hate my birthdays. i don’t to celebrate my life.

someone i have on facebook has an album called ‘drunkun night’. they can’t even...

Sun, 05 Sep 2010 01:10:58 +0100

someone i have on facebook has an album called ‘drunkun night’. they can’t even spell drunken and they have pictures of them with empty bottles of drink. THEY ARE SO COOL OMG I WANT TO BE THEM. no.

fucking hell everyones fucking leaving my school. i’m going to have one friend at my school...

Thu, 02 Sep 2010 21:25:37 +0100

fucking hell everyones fucking leaving my school. i’m going to have one friend at my school next year now. tomorrows going to be shit. i hate life.

um i’m probably going to delete soon before i go back to school because i want to do well so i...

Tue, 31 Aug 2010 19:29:34 +0100

um i’m probably going to delete soon before i go back to school because i want to do well so i can go to university far farrrrr away from Milton Keynes. so yeah unfollow now if you wish.

HOGWARTS ISN’T REAL GET A LIFE.

Tue, 31 Aug 2010 19:28:32 +0100

HOGWARTS ISN’T REAL

GET A LIFE.

HATE LIFE JUST REMOVING ALL THE TAGS ON EVERY PICTURE ON FACEBOOK I AM TAGGED IN

Tue, 24 Aug 2010 23:30:43 +0100

HATE LIFE

JUST REMOVING ALL THE TAGS ON EVERY PICTURE ON FACEBOOK I AM TAGGED IN

so pissed off.

Tue, 24 Aug 2010 18:32:30 +0100

so pissed off.

something is wrong with me. why do i want to do maths next year?

Tue, 24 Aug 2010 12:16:02 +0100

something is wrong with me. why do i want to do maths next year?

might as well. Art: B Core Science: A Additional Science: A Maths: A French: B History: B IT:...

Tue, 24 Aug 2010 11:41:24 +0100

might as well.

Art: B

Core Science: A

Additional Science: A

Maths: A

French: B

History: B

IT: Distinction* which is 2 A*s

ummm and i did english a year early last year and got

English Lang: A

English Lit: B

and find out media next year for some reason :)

gcse results

Tue, 24 Aug 2010 10:36:56 +0100

yay didnt fail :D haha

this girl who i’m ish friends with is a model and she’s on the frontpage of asos :D so...

Sun, 22 Aug 2010 20:54:30 +0100

this girl who i’m ish friends with is a model and she’s on the frontpage of asos :D so proud.

katiefuckingfitch-: aponeurosis:fuckyeahdaterape:arockettothemai...

Fri, 20 Aug 2010 16:22:42 +0100

katiefuckingfitch-:

aponeurosis:fuckyeahdaterape:arockettothemaine:

Fixed At Zero - VersaEmerge

just hate everything. i have one friend who everytime i think things are getting better with it just...

Thu, 19 Aug 2010 23:15:24 +0100

just hate everything. i have one friend who everytime i think things are getting better with it just goes shit again when her friends are back from holiday or no one else is online. i am so pathetic. i just lose everyone so for sixth form i have about 2 friends now. i don’t even care anymore. i’m just going to work hard and delete this thing so i can go to uni away from this fucking place.

just thought about the possibilty of getting a D in french on tuesday haha. if i get less than a C...

Thu, 19 Aug 2010 17:01:37 +0100

just thought about the possibilty of getting a D in french on tuesday haha. if i get less than a C and my teacher’s there i will feel so sorry for him haha.

some people’s bad AS results are making me do my AS level chemistry and biology summer work...

Thu, 19 Aug 2010 15:47:26 +0100

some people’s bad AS results are making me do my AS level chemistry and biology summer work haha. i am going to work so hard when i start.

just realised how lonely i am and i will be forever.

Tue, 17 Aug 2010 23:18:50 +0100

just realised how lonely i am and i will be forever.

compressthesound: joshdg: sircadogan: (via...

Mon, 16 Aug 2010 23:58:04 +0100

compressthesound:

joshdg:

sircadogan:

(via byegoingtoneverland)

Day 3- First 8 songs to come on shuffle from yesterday - 30stm skyway avenue - we the kings pressure...

Mon, 16 Aug 2010 21:10:00 +0100

Day 3- First 8 songs to come on shuffle

from yesterday - 30stm

skyway avenue - we the kings

pressure - paramore

7 things - miley cyrus ehehe don’t judge me

safer to hate her - you me at six

save our selves - the blackout

all we know - paramore

miami - taking back sunday